I let go. I just stopped holding on to self-control.
The restraint of perfectionism and humanism were destroying me.
I closed my eyes and shuddered in release.
My shoulders collapsed in defeat or was it triumph?
My soul exploded into fragmented pieces as it fell apart in a cosmic burst of flames.
For one moment, I lost myself to the universe.
I had the answer to all of my questions.
I had the answer to all the questions I never knew I had
and it broke me
It broke me in the most achingly beautiful way.
Every molecule of my existence connected to the Darkness
a Darkness that I forgot existed.
This Darkness was the very essence of everythingness
I knew that I had never felt more whole in my hole life.
Breaking is absolute freedom and an epiphany
I wish it on all my loved ones and any enemy
Without wrath, I hope you break everything.
May you shatter, break, and die inside
so you know what it feels like to be alive.
Breathing does not mean anything
until you remember that you are everything.
You are the Universe.